I am a sinner 

I have sinned, too many times. Only God's grace saves me or will. What if, I sinned once too often? If I beg forgiveness again and his grace to heal me once more. The vile i put myself into, may be inexcusable? I pray not, but I know God's will is always right. And if I have gone too far away from him. His will be done. Follow his word and see the loss of life from thee, when we drag his Holy Spirit into our sins we disrespect love again and again..il e

 

I end this thought with a wish for you, to pray for me. God bless you all, truly evil exists but GOD is mightier than. Rebuke the evil the next time it visits. Spit it to the floor and off to the pit. In Jesus's name rebuke and repel for they have to flee! 

An Audio and movie timeline from sin to forgiven..  

This is an audio of how we go from sin to being forgiven. This shows the thought process and the rationalization of how most of us sin, and how most of us are forgiven when we repent! https://youtu.be/C9U3Gzjvtrk

Poetry about God and prayer 

Prayer poem

The echo of my soul

  Never slows the hum

For Gods love to surround 

When light dims my heart

Silence slips away into prayer

Our Heavenly Father in Jesus name 

I begin  

  Help me hear you 

Remain in your light 

Never to slow with evil 

In the darkness of fright 

Lift me now into forever calm

Cover me with peace 

Help me shine your love 

Impart to all 

     Thank you for loving me

I truly love and give thanks to you 

Amen

 

Timeline of Sinning to being forgiven / audio of writing at bottom 

 

He walked into the bar with his casual stride. Worn out jeans with discolored patches from stain for wooden crosses. He was a warrior for God, a healer they said. The bartender smiled as he walked in, knowing he would begin with jin. “Well hello Mike how is your day? Want the normal?” Mike smiled and lowered his head, “you know I don’t drink anymore I work for God.” Then he sat at the bar and put his wallet next to the bowl of nuts. “But tonight is special give me a double shot of  house tequila instead of jin!.” The bartender smiled an unusually large smile and poured the drink for this man at the bar. 

 

“Today doesn’t matter nor will I be judged!” He held the shot of tequila and raised it to the air, “To God!” then tilted the shot glass to empty into his mouth. The bartender smiled once more, an unusually large smile, “that’s the way to do it Mike.” He felt the old feeling of the alcohol moving through his veins. He smiled at the bartender, who still smiled an unusually large smile.

 

Mike had several more shots with a grin on his face that didn’t match his soul. A lady sat next to him, “buy me a drink stranger,” She spoke with a southern accent and leaned just right when she said ‘drink.’  Mike saw the easy of her skin near his touch. His thoughts were poetic with the easy and such being a poet and all. His imagination saw more and a few drinks later they walked to the door. The bartender smiled an unusually large smile then grinned as evil poured across the bar. Energy moving toward and against Mike just as he left.. the bar.

 

He followed her to her room near the bar, feeling the need to know every part, of   .. her. He felt God’s stared but did not care, he saw Jesus look at him but walked the other way. The Holy Spirit shot a warning with regret, but he walked behind watching every move she made. Her hips hypnotized him into the pleasure of flesh. The tequila amplified his fall into flesh. The door closed and he pushed guilt away. 

 

The day opened with filth in his mind. The dirt of sin was heavy as slime across and into his mouth and his soul. “God, I am sorry, help  ….” His words fell to the floor of the dirty carpeted room. Covered with stains from who knows what. Other souls falling to her desires. 

 

He dressed but felt his filth, his sin cover him across everything he saw. She slept and he left quickly. He fell to his knees to talk to God, to see if Jesus would hear and if the Holy Spirit was near.  He saw Jesus on the cross and blood began to fall. He was kneeling on the gravel of the parking lot and began to weep. He saw his drunkenness cut Jesus with the whip of sin. He saw the fornication slash the blood from His body that caused Jesus to sink in pain. He tried to speak to say all is ok. Then he saw Jesus in front of him with love in his eyes. The blood dripped and hit him on the arm. Just the touch of Jesus’s blood removed his guilt. Just looking into his eyes removed the stain of all his actions the night before.

 

He walked away with pain in his heart weeping with thanks to the Son of God. Jesus knew long before Mike was born that this sin would happen the timing the all. Mike wept as he saw the visions of pain but dropped to his knees then laying flat his face on the ground he cried. “I lifted filth into my body and against my soul, I was lazy and said just a little bit will hold. But YOU my Lord and savior for all. Your love said, “I knew this day would come.”

 

Mike walked the day into the night praying to God to forgive his way. But that first  moment he was shown Jesus’s love he was forgiven. 

 

We sin through this life and God knew we would, so he sent his Son to endure pure torture to remove that sin, we would do again and again.

 

Talk to Jesus today my friend, for he waits for conversation and to lead you to him. God is all knowing and our sins he knew from before our birth. Even millions of years ago, God knew we would fail, is why Jesus is with us forever to take us away from hell!

 

If any of this story sounds like you, you are running out of times to sin tis true. After too many your heart becomes hard and Jesus will not hear your cries.

 

God bless you all …. walk the path of love. Amen! Praise you God!            click link below to hear the audio 

 

https://youtu.be/C9U3Gzjvtrk        

 

 
an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.
"he is prey to irrational fears"
Similar:

terror

 

fright

 
fearfulness

horror

 

alarm

 

panic

 

agitation

 

trepidation

 

dread

 

consternation

 

dismay

 

distress

 

anxiety

 

worry

 

angst

 

unease

 

uneasiness

 

apprehension

 
apprehensiveness

nervousness

 

nerves

 

timidity

 

disquiet

 

disquietude

 

discomposure

 

unrest

 

perturbation

 

foreboding

 

misgiving

 

doubt

 

suspicion

 
the creeps
the willies
the heebie-jeebies

the shakes

 
the collywobbles
jitteriness

twitchiness

 
butterflies (in the stomach)

funk

 

blue funk

 
the (screaming) abdabs
the Joe Blakes

worriment

 

inquietude

 

phobia

 

aversion

 

antipathy

 

bugbear

 

bogey

 

nightmare

 

neurosis

 

complex

 

mania

 
abnormal fear
irrational fear
obsessive fear

bête noire

 

hang-up

 
Opposite:

calmness

 

confidence

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Similar:
 
 
 
 

terror

 

fright

 
fearfulness

horror

 

alarm

 

panic

 

agitation

 

trepidation

 

dread

 

consternation

 

dismay

 

distress

 

anxiety

 

worry

 

angst

 

unease

 

uneasiness

 

apprehension

 
apprehensiveness

nervousness

 

nerves

 

timidity

 

disquiet

 

disquietude

 

discomposure

 

unrest

 

perturbation

 

foreboding

 

misgiving

 

doubt

 

suspicion

 
the creeps
the willies
the heebie-jeebies

the shakes

 
the collywobbles
jitteriness

twitchiness

 
butterflies (in the stomach)

funk

 

blue funk

 
the (screaming) abdabs
the Joe Blakes

worriment

 

inquietude

 

phobia

 

aversion

 

antipathy

 

bugbear

 

bogey

 

nightmare

 

neurosis

 

complex

 

mania

 
abnormal fear
irrational fear
obsessive fear

bête noire

 

hang-up

 
Opposite:

calmness

 

confidence

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

When The Holy Spirit.. speaks / audio of words at bottom click the link 

I worship God through my thoughts

  they banter with him in a holy way

with the Holy Spirit’s grammar

 one cannot go wrong 

 the speak in his language 

touch of soul clings to hope

savoring every moment of this pause in time

I wait to battle the old

for when his peace leaves

a wee but

   we begin again to be in this

mortal flesh with 

a 

time limit..

 

     he silences the worries

putting love into the blanks of me

   for I am nothing but all

I am all but nothing

 removing self from

the taste of time

   the Holy spirit

has my  rhyme

     what you say?

have you given away?

    all of me for God to use

to lift a soul from sadness

and its ugliest hue of

oh so much pain

 fear tries to claim

   easy is a second

with his glance as the brush

  upon me now is God

within me 

is God

I banter with

 God 

the three in ones I call them

   neither of any maters though

for God is God

and he carries the tow

 of our

souls

    flushed away is evil

with the rotted and decayed

lies   purged  .. thrown

 tossed   to make me clean

   

 I give today once more to thee my Lord

 use me to heal others

use me to soothe fear

use me to work your love

your light..that holy light

covers every pain and removes every sin

 with one

faint whisper

   that one of faith

 

  how do I tell them?

how can I say the magnificent of your love Lord!

  .. when easy is the walk with you by our side

with our stride

between our tides of doubt

and rise

 

        ..I will try Lord

but you will finish

 the way of me 

the way of free

 the way of forever   

me with thee

 

 we all walk our different paths

but you my Lord

 have the wya

the way

the way is Jesus

the way ..

 I bid thee good day for

a moment I rest

   the battles have

worn my body

to weaken my seed

with thee across and into

tomorrow will be again again

 my journey here

in mortal flesh 

 

to wipe the sadness off

the clay feet

cleaned with your word your love!

 

oh praise you God our savior indeed

for sacrifice relieves

relieved… gives freedom

to smle

at the whispers of the trees..

oh I begin to ramble and babble nonsense 

within your joy the way of s smile

is perfection across me  

.. slumber with me Lord

 rest your open wounds

of our sins across your Sons flesh

    still seen

in heavens bow

           until I awaken

to begin again

your walk through me

to remove their sin

my sin

our sins..

removed yet still oh my mind is tried

of the way of the devils

ways to ..

to

   I laugh    he can do nothing when I stand true

in your glory I will swim

forever until 

my end..

here in this world

 of learning life and love

again..

 

Mitch Bensel 

Linke to ‘hear’ the words 

https://youtu.be/st2PZdcJAaA


 

The blades of the blender....God's love mixing us to become new! /audio at bottom of article 

I love these new blenders, new to me, where you put your mix into a cup that you then screw the blade cap onto it. With one action of turning it upside down and placing the blade into the mix, voila! instant action. We all know what happens if we don't put enough liquid into the mix of fruits and powders we are mixing. It doesn't mix well. What is on the top as you hold it on the blender just stays still with its fruit and some of the liquid sitting there. Not being pulled down to the blades to be mixed well. We have to either shake it, which will do nothing or remove and add fluid or stir with a spoon to move the untouched fruit and powder toward the blades. 

I watched as the blueberries and fresh liquid were not moving down to the blades, yet the blades were still churning away taking what was near and mixing. This made me think of our whole life. We are to give all of ourselves for the Holy Spirit to use for God's glory and when we do not we are like the separated fruit from the liquid and the powder. Just sitting up there being what they are, fruit, liquid and powder.  

When we don't bring God into our life we are at the top, away from God's grace, His blades that are what will complete us in soul, mind and body. Without His touch changing us to be new we are incomplete . When we do not pray or think of Him, maybe on Sundays and thats it. The small amount of thoughts to God, is that is movement where the blades are mixing well, grabbing what is near and creating new.

At the top where the liquid and fruit kind of move a wee bit. Is when we only think of God a ‘wee’ bit not bringing Him into our literal every moment. With a thank you when you wake, with a praise you God when we sleep.

But finally we feel God's reach, the liquid the blades are moving catch some of our disregard to God mixing it with understanding and love. We are new with God and new with our lives and actions. We changed up and prayed more. He answered more due to our faith and only by His Grace did we finally let go of being separate at the top of the mixing glass,and dove into His love being blended with a perfect and healthy spiritual life. Just like the drink, being made to help us be healthy. God never stops turning the blades of His love, showing us He loves us and how well he mixes us with His love. Once we feel His love we become the mix of His will and walk with and through love the rest of our lives.

 

Click on the link below to ‘hear’ mitch say these words

https://youtu.be/sPwkIUXFkkw

God bless you all and add more prayer and take His love to stir like a spoon that part of us we haven't given to God!