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Dare I ask, one more time dear Lord forgive me? How many times have I said, “never again,” then ran into the same sin’s wall. Do the leaves beg to lift and turn away from the sun or the rain? Why would they, a gift from God tis both. Nature has forgiveness for being nature. Man has forgiveness for being Jesus’s children. But, how many times can we tempt His forgiveness? 


Too many times fallen, does that mean fallen forever?  Jesus is love and suffered more than we can image for those very sins we keep commenting. I say we, I mean me. I do believe His love and once more I am forgiven but, will take time to wash that dirt off the soul’s eye.


Withering without His love, wishing to throw self in front of traffic or against harms way to beg once more for forgiveness and to use the pain to remove such. But only Jesus can forgive sins with pain, with His death on a cross so many years ago. Did He cover the last one feel it   once more? Is that one not covered and now I am doomed into the forever of sadness and no love? I will close my eyes and pretend I didn’t type that nor even thought it. Then, Jesus will smile and say, “You are forgiven my son, but sin no more.” I can see His gentle smile with the corner of his eyes showing a bit of sadness from my sin against Him. 


So we walk through our day, we try to live in this world without living in this world. We cannot do the earthly pleasures for the most part, they are all a sin. But with Jesus and His love we don’t want such pleasures, or do we? Do others rationalize sin like I just did? “Oh you are a good guy Mitch, He will forgive you, just one more time.”   No, I dare say, this is almost blasphemy and that such sin of the Holy Spirit one cannot return from.


So I rambled a bit into word that will never be seen by anyone by God. I invite Michael the Archangel and all the warrior angels to my side. Protect me and keep me in  proper stance with my soul’s glance.


God bless you all, for He truly is a whisper away.

Is there a time when you will not be tempted? 

is there ever a time in life one does not give into temptations? Some say of course! I say, there is a time you are more aware it is wrong but rationalize it and sin.. then fall into the cycle of sin ask forgiveness try then fail. Is there ever a time you are not tempted? The time that occurs, is when you see and know it is a wrong action, and learned to pray and get busy with things, removing self from familiar temptations.
is there ever a time.. one is not tempted? Only when one truly reads the Bible daily, prays for discernment. Then, and only then, when the sin approaches with the whispering demons, you truly are aware of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. With God in front of the temptation you will not fail.
Is there ever a time in life one does not give into temptations? The time that is the most dangerous is this, Knowing the Holy Spirit, Jesus and God are looking right at you. Not a'faith' of knowing, a knowing knowing. As you give in, once more to a familiar sin and you literally are aware of their presence and you know it is a sin? That my friends is very very close to Blasphemy toward the Holy Spirit.
pray, talk, walk with, be with on a constant in thought process either asking or giving thanks to God. Reach out to someone if you are about to do it ..yet one more time.
God will help you know
God bless you

Shade of sin blocks the Holy Spirit's light in our life 

I was going to fix a screen, one of the panels had separated from the other panel. I walked to my drawer of tools where I work on crosses and stood there a moment. I forgot what I was going to do.. I looked in the drawer and thought,, “what was I going to do?” I stayed there and looked at all my tools, I wasn’t currently working on a cross, so it wasn’t that.. then I glanced around and saw nails on a shelf. “I remember, I was going to fix that screen and needed my hammer!”  

Going to the bible like me going to my drawer of tools, but forgetting what I was looking for. We read not knowing When God will let us ‘see’ or ‘hear’ what we need to learn.  While reading the bible, Like me going to my tools, looking in the drawer but forgetting why I was there. I knew the ‘tool’ was in that drawer, but forgot why. The bible is the ‘tool’ for us to learn what is a sin and to live in His word.

When we open the bible, we truly do not know what God will show us. Then, we read scripture which we learn and can now walk in His light through our day. We have the ‘tool’ /His word/ to impart in the way needed, that word of God through life gently with love.

Keep thinking about your actions. Keep questioning those actions, where the Holy Spirit is saying “whoa.. buddy.. don’t do that” with a feeling of.. not good.

When we get closer to the Lord, understanding His will He imparts onto us the understanding to allow the Holy Spirit to work through us.  We begin to feel the slightest dark shade from a sin.. could have been a thought of judgment of someone or wishing something not good on someone.  

The CLOSER you get to the Lord and your path of walking and working for Him.. what was the subtle sin you didnt know or feel it was wrong.. becomes a literal feeling of the loss of light in your soul.. there is a tangible palpable feeling of Gods Presence with the Holy Spirit in all .. but the more you learn and the less you sin.. the stronger the light flows through you.

 That is the peace of the Lord.. the peace from the Holy Spirit where doesnt matter what is happening in your world, He will take you through it without fear, pain or sadness.  When one sins at that level the lack of brilliance is shown there is a shade to the feeling of God within you.  The Holy Spirit is still His bright self.. but the sin has put a black umbrella  up blocking light to a part of your soul…

Brothers and sisters,, I have lived a life of many sins.. after some not good things happened to me ..I went crazy in the world grabbing any pleasure I could. I didn’t care how vile it was, I was reaching for love, for pleasure to feel good to cover my pain from life.

Through my broken soul and heart, I reached for God. with each thought and reach He answered. Life was not easier, yet. I am a healing minister for God now. Always was, prayed and knew miracles happened but I was still walking through not a good place and away from God. Walking the line, being a hypocrite.. but I had to get to that point before I could even learn that is what I was doing.

We learn in seasons and levels through this physical flesh and life. When we always try to learn His way. When we read the bible.. walk the best we can.. He becomes louder in our whole existence.     WE still HAVE free will.. and the enemy is always whispering.. unless and until you rebuke and turn to God.. we are blessed we have 3 in one…..shows how intricately involved God is with us.. there is the comforter…always with us . the holy spirit.. there is Jesus, word in flesh who became the filth of life and allowed the devil to rip Him apart and mock him.. we have the Father.. who loves us so much     He gave Jesus. His only 

Son      so we..      only… so we wouldn’t be damned forever.

Hell must be pretty real, and very bad for the Father, who allows free will, sent Jesus to be the sacrifice for us. God the Father knows what it takes to grow spirit, to clean soul and spirit to be with Him. We cannot understand or fathom the reasonings of a sacrifice to be made..   or suffering here    why? Why, because the Father knows how to grow the spirit to be able to have the energy levels of love and purity to be in heaven and walk with Him.  

There are different levels of energy with every action. Love’s energy is beyond different from anger. hatred, vile, just plain evil actions.. that energy cannot exist in heaven.  The waves cannot exist in heaven.

So, trust the Father, His Son Jesus and the Holy Spirit the comforter indwelling in all of us. And step up into a light that has energy of forever love  and step away from that energy of evil where the vibrations of such in your soul, will keep you from being in heaven. 


Listen to the teacher! listen to the Father.. listen to His son! Jesus literally bled and suffered on a tree to save us………. has to be serious and scary


God bless you with His presence


Mitch Bensel



Jesus walks through evil to save us 

Walking through this life trying to do the right thing.. we learn to talk to/ pray to the Lord and read our bible. Then with that reach God helps us to the levels it is time for us to be on.  The enemy doesn’t give up, wanting to destroy the light that is God, that is in all of us. Has nothing to do with YOU, has to do with the enemy’s hatred of God. We are all born in His image and he wants to destroy what God loves and created.


God, not invasive, giving us free will, always allows us to sin. but the Holy spirit is always there or at least until you rebuke Him by sinning too many times, then heart is hardened. A hardened heart is one that has turned away and removed God, which is removing LOVE from self and spirit. Hence heart, represents love is hardened, no love exists. Which is an energy, a level of energy is love and is evil. The two do not mix, cannot live together.


We have many chances, The Holy Spirit convicts us, that means we have regret, we feel bad. We have a covering of not good feeling and words being whispered into our ears from the enemy, “you are no good” you cannot be with good.” So we pray and God says I have you my child.  GOD, walks into and through evil  to save us, to stop us from sinning because we asked for help. 


As I was failing once, a sin that I was always giving into, a little then stopping.  Sometimes not stopping and finalizing the sin, then regret hits. As I was failing, Jesus stepped into the middle of the vile and lifted me away from that sin. He didn’t have to. He lets us choose.


Jesus stepped into sin on the cross. Took on its vile, its pain and its separation from the FATHER,  HE purposefully took this step to save us and help us not be forever in pain and agony in hell, but to be in joyous love in heaven. To be surrounded with love and go to all the worlds through time, God the Father will create!


Think about how bad hell must be, if the Son of God had to come here in flesh as man to take on torture, To let the enemy spit and rip His skin off. To mock Him with each lash. Jesus, with one thought could have destroyed them and the whole world.  Legions of angels would be around Him. but, He allowed, He walked into the sin, the darkness the vile to save us, to die for us. 


A parent will do what is needed to help their child. I walked into a dangerous situation. I went to a place to save my daughter..I prayed and with a gun in my pocket ready to use it if needed. The place was dangerous, where life didn’t matter, where the ones that choose evil walked. I was told by friends not to go! 


I was able to help her but only by walking into danger, not caring if something happened to me.  That is what Jesus did on that cross and now He still does, walks into evil, right next to us.


John 15:13 

Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. …  Jesus lay down His life        

God walks into our sinful flesh, stands next to us watching while we sin. God see’s all we do evil and the good   

Proverbs 15:3 

The eyes of the Lord are in every place, beholding the evil and the good.

HE  does this when we ask for help, in the middle of the sin we we whisper, while we sin, help me Lord!!!    

That is when He walks right to you and gives you His hand. He stands next to the vile you are participating in. all of His light and love, in the middle of them mocking Him, while they drop their evil upon your skin and soul.


We can walk through this life and learn the way to live and separate from the life/ flesh of life, and walk in Spirit with God and still live in life! Enjoying this beautiful world He created! 


You sinned again, now what? 

We walk the best we can in God's glory. We read the bible, we pray for people, we give our lives to God, to Jesus to the Holy Spirit, then we sin.  Is a moment of an old path, familiar and vile but we rationalize it is ok, we know God loves us and it cant be that bad. But, every sin is bad. The small one of lying to the horrible one of murder. Oh, not the murder of flesh, but the assassination of their integrity and their reputation.


God abhors bearing false witness against another, it is considered murder. But Mitch, c'mon he is just a bad guy and gossips also. A sin, any sin is massive in the eyes of our Lord. Jesus had to suffer more than we can ever understand, so we can be forgiven, again and again for sinning.


I do not care how close or far away from God you are, a sin hits the soul with a vile black drop. Each sin that occurs and we do not ask forgiveness we do not repent/ change mind/ and denounce/ don'd do it anymore, it begins a huge eclipse of God's vision upon us. God sees all the evil and the good, Proverbs 15;3. but He will not ‘hear’ us. John 9:31. Now we know that God heareth not sinners: but if any man be a worshipper of God, and doeth his will, him he heareth.

So when we sin again, get to a quiet place and talk with God. Let Him see you want to stop, we want to be what He needs, we want His love and light to shine on all we are around.


Is easy to fail, and is easy to ask forgiveness. When we stop asking and trying not to sin, is when our souls are doomed to a forever suffering in hell. Matthew 25;41  Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels


God bless you

Asking the Holy Spirit to bless the crosses when purchased 

I just finished making 4 pocket driftwood crosses for an order. While making the driftwood crosses i am shown how to make them, then as i carve and sand on them am shown Jesus getting the lashes and being taunted.  When I finish the cross for an order just before I mail them, I ask God to bless them.

I am shown different things, depending on what the home needs or person needs. Today as I asked God to bless one, I felt the light of the Holy Spirit move through me as He showed me where on the man needed healing. I was shown two places where the light flowed to and through him. Was also made aware of depression and a deep sadness.

My faith and gift from the Holy Spirit and the faith of the person ordering the cross, creates the path for the Holy Spirit to heal. I send the cross tomorrow and will wait and see what the person says about it when they receive it. Usually there is an emotinoal moment, the beauty of the presence of the Holy Spirit always causes amazing tears of peace and a feeling of love.



A Day in the Life of a Healer, at least with Mitch 


I hold the Holy Trinity close to my heart daily. God is in my every thought as is an awareness and desire to pray for all that I see as I go through the day. March 31,2024, was a day of different moments of the Holy Spirit's touch. 


I had to drop something at the hospital, and as I walked past a man standing outside pediatric surgery center. I was shown his worry, his prayers and his child. I closed my eyes as I walked past him, he was waiting anxiously to get through the door to see his child. I always close my eyes for a moment when beginning to be shown the light from the Holy Spirit. I either see a child, or a person or silhouette of someone, then Holy Spirit light moves through and around them, where they need healing. The Holy Spirit showed me he had prayers going to God and then light from me the Holy Spirit going to his prayer, then into the surgery area away from him.  That light was to join his prayer for his son and fill it with healing heading to his son. I was shown son would be ok. 


As I walked toward the office where I needed to drop off paperwork, there were many people at registration signing in for tests to be done. An elderly lady who just signed in and turned to the seating area was slow in movement. I closed my eyes and was shown a small bit of light, then I ‘prayed,’ and ask God to help her not feel pain, to move easily and to be healed if His will. 

I turned to look at all waiting to have tests done. Was shown fear, pain and strength. I then was shown light moving to all sitting in the area, as I closed my eyes. The Holy Spirit showed me many thick waves of light going to all.The light came from beyond the ceiling. Other times the light moves from me, where the Holy Spirit, the great comforter and the blessing from our Father is indwelling.

Sometimes the light is just on the person and I am shown, this light was very thick which usually means good healing from God. This was like watching a breeze move to and through the waiting area into the people needing help.

I have to close my eyes and settle into my depth,  then He shows me. As a healer one has authority over the Holy Spirit. The closer to God with faith, more miracles can occur, for the Holy Spirit works through all healers. We, as humans do nothing but aim to be as clear of sin as possible and that only happens because of His grace.  I have to start the ‘prayer,’ then the Holy Spirit moves.

As I walked back to my car I closed my eyes and sent the Holy Spirit to all that needed help and have been prayed for. To all that were till suffering for them to not feel pain and to heal. prayed for all in the hospital that God was waiting for prayer. I will say I ‘pray,’ for this is a level where the Holy Spirit moves from me that I cannot explain.

If i see someone walking to a store and their gait is favored with obvious pain, I close my eyes for a moment, and light goes. Sometimes no light is shown, so I ‘pray.’ Help them not hurt, help them financially help them feel your presence and peace, Jesus to the Father I pray.

God was working that day, but He works everyday for us. He sees our every moment, He is watching me type this and you reading this. Not one moment is left unseen by our Father. That thought alone may help all not sin! We fail, Jesus takes care of that when we repent and denounce sin. Jesus gave us that gift, to be forgiven. 

Do I know if He helped them? I cannot put down a name and a this or a that, but I  KNOW He did. That my friends is the power of faith and God's love.

God bless you that read this and may God bless you with peace and an answer to your troubles. Worry about nothing, pray about everything




Bottled in Bond in Jesus name I say ... 

Bottled in Bond  In Jesus name I say


Hello darkest ones that the Lord is trying to lift into a puddle of happiest waters. Did you know we are mostly water? Did you know that the Holy Spirit showed Himself to me as waters? Yes, one day as He took over my voice and asked “May I pray for you?” This was unbeknownst to me at the time. My right hand came up beside my head, palm open towards the cashier that was having trouble breathing. She answered quickly with an obvious faith “Yes!” And she lowered her head in respect. I was shown waters moving from me, in a rectangular way of movement right into her. She breathed in immediately and her complete countenance changed. She was in that instant, healed from a life long path of asthma.


Yes, darkest ones that the Lord is trying to lift into that puddle of happiest waters. This is a true miracle and one of many miracles He has used me to move and work through. Did you know that God is not intrusive? That the Father waits for us to ‘ask’ so that then He shall answer? Oh yes, mighty darkest ones waiting for the cool puddle of happiest waters of the Holy Spirit.


I am a sinner, as we all are but I feel I am a bad sinner person. Yet, God is using me, attempting to use me to keep me in His word. For if I fail enough and too many times, He has thousands He can turn to and use. YOU also, can be used by the Father of all things. But, ya gotta stop sinning. But Mitch? I enjoy booze and the ladies and the indulgent way of human life. I cannot stop such things, so I guess I will burn.  “Yea, you will,” I say to those that say these words my way. Again, God is not intrusive so we all begin a journey of temptation like never before in our lives when we decide, to hear God asking for us to follow and give our lives to Him.


But Mitch, I cannot give up my greed and the pleasures of the women through my touch all turns to ecstasy! How dare you suggest such to me, that God would want that unhappiness in my life! Go thither away from me! “Ah, you protest too much my friend in love with God and love.”


The silence and calmness that becomes you when you choose God, has no description. Denounce even your coffee for I tell you true we are only shown by contrasts the horrible and the beautiful in life. Contrasts of good and evil. Oh, but Mitch you are boring me with such banter. I must go drink bourbon and become wise unto the lady that winks my way. I must become her pleasure and be the all she seeks. Of course, when morning finds I will leave her in that puddle of fake love and vile fornication. But, Mitch, I am forgiven right?


I dare say, yes but thou tempt the Lord too many  times and away from Him is your soul.  There is no returning if you do such animosity to our God.


Hear me those that will hear me. I was shown the way of heaven with its beauty and love I cannot describe. I was shown peace that literally causes your soul to fly into tears of love. I was shown the evil, I fought until it killed me as I turned my back to its claws that were razors. Hear me, you have a path with God, He knew you before birth. YOU had a conversation with Him about your life here, You knew what you were getting into. This is but a teeny bit of time, a vapor of time. Hear me you that wants the pleasures of the woman or the man. That wants the money through greed to destroy all to get that bit of cash. Hear me if you can hear me. Stop giving in to sin. Sin, is death to forever with love. Sin, is choice of forgotten spies and no place to lay thy head with peace. Sin, is the lost cough upon the spew of filth across your soul and the only place you will be allowed to sleep. Covered in the stench and lifting redundantly into its vile. Your choice when you remain in the way of evil and flesh.


Tell me something, you are complete with God’s light, you are born in His image, your soul. Your spirit has to grow in life. The many times you say no to sin, the many times you helped another without gain or reward. The times you opened a door for someone and said, “have a blessed day.” The sins of your family can stop with you. Did you know you have the power to stop the generational sin lineage? Just takes one of the blood of that sin. 

The demons that have whispered the same temptations to your ancestors, are whispering to you now. And you are giving into their bottled in bond 100 proof temptations. Stand up and reach for our Lord God through Jesus to the Father all things are heard. Then when they whisper, when they physically touch you in an erotic way, when they whisper for you to curse another, when they whisper, one more drink, it’s ok. Step away and say ‘NO!” Then they have to flee.    I am not saying you will always remain steadfast and not sin, but it will get fewer and fewer times you give in. Why, you ask. Because God sees you trying and asking for help. God is not intrusive. So ask, plead, beg, scream to stop! Then walk through your day with His word. Going to the Bible, hearing what you can hear and doing what you can do, with God. 


Hello darkest ones in life here. We who are the greatest of sinners need to be ready to love God. To tell that person over there, “stop! God is here and loves you!”


Hello darkest ones of life here, I am darkest also but I strive for His love, for His peace and for His forgiveness from His Son Jesus. Did you know that every sin you are committing now He died for 2000 years ago for forgiveness of it. 

Did you know God knew you before you were born and knew your choices. Did you know you are loved beyond time for He gave Jesus to suffer our pain.  

Did you know I also love you for you are my brother, my sister, my mother my father. We are all born of Christ Jesus, WE are all born from love.


Did you know……………..  


Imagine the immense pain and horror Jesus had in that one moment..  

A thought came to me today while praying and thinking about Jesus. I think of Him often,His love for us His pain he endured for us. While i make the crosses, i see His suffering with each carving and shaping of the cross. OUR vile actions against the Father that Jesus knew he would take on. From the beginning, imagine doing nothing wrong but loving all, teaching words of love, showing the will of His Father. He said often He was doing the will of the Father. In a holy vision to me that is being finalized into song, the words “your desires are the Father's, only His way is the way.” Shows that Jesus, who is the Son of God, who is one of the Holy Trinity, was doing the Father's will.

He prayed three different times in the Garden on the night of Him being taken away. Three times for at least an hour each time. For He admonished them that they could not stay awake for ‘at least’ an hour. So, possibly a little less. Imagine the intensity of the prayers, Jesus talking to His Father, knowing the suffering He would endure. 

Mark 14:34 KJV  And saith unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful unto death: tarry ye here, and watch 

The long tortured journey to the hill to be finally nailed to the cross. Suffering immeasurably. Now the moment comes. He knew He was almost done with His task of saving us. Our sins ripped through Him with every lash, torn into him with each nail. Every drop of blood a scream through the halls of His soul! Pain of which we will never experience. 

Then.. Separation from the Father. Forever was with the Father until that moment. Imagine the intensity of the pain our Lord felt then yelled out. Obviously the knowledge of that moment of separation  was kept from Him. He did not know He would not feel the presence of the Father. That is the horrendous amount of sins committed so bad and so many that Jesus had to feel separation from the Father for the first time, in time. In the existence of time. To take on pain we will never know, to be so tortured physically, then had to be separated from the Father. i cannot even imagine Jesus's sorrow  silence in His soul, His Father turned away

Father God will not look at sin, Jesus had taken all the sins to the point of being completely blotted out of the Father's vision. I believe there are two reasons for the separation. One, is because He will not look upon Sin, and I feel Jesus had to feel, experience the pain of the void life is without the Father, that is the horrendous amount of sins He took away.