I have sinned, too many times. Only God's grace saves me or will. What if, I sinned once too often? If I beg forgiveness again and his grace to heal me once more. The vile i put myself into, may be inexcusable? I pray not, but I know God's will is always right. And if I have gone too far away from him. His will be done. Follow his word and see the loss of life from thee, when we drag his Holy Spirit into our sins we disrespect love again and again..il e

I end this thought with a wish for you, to pray for me. God bless you all, truly evil exists but GOD is mightier than. Rebuke the evil the next time it visits. Spit it to the floor and off to the pit. In Jesus's name rebuke and repel for they have to flee! 

We look upon the cross and think of our Lord Jesus! https://youtube.com/shorts/lFme7GMV-nI

below is the audio that is shown on the first page. Here is the the audio with the original words.

https://youtu.be/GexmzL3u5EI?feature=shared

Dare I ask, one more time dear Lord forgive me? How many times have I said, “never again,” then ran into the same sin’s wall. Do the leaves beg to lift and turn away from the sun or the rain? Why would they, a gift from God tis both. Nature has forgiveness for being nature. Man has forgiveness for being Jesus’s children. But, how many times can we tempt His forgiveness? 

Too many times fallen, does that mean fallen forever?  Jesus is love and suffered more than we can image for those very sins we keep commenting. I say we, I mean me. I do believe His love and once more I am forgiven but, will take time to wash that dirt off the soul’s eye.

Withering without His love, wishing to throw self in front of traffic or against harms way to beg once more for forgiveness and to use the pain to remove such. But only Jesus can forgive sins with pain, with His death on a cross so many years ago. Did He cover the last one feel it   once more? Is that one not covered and now I am doomed into the forever of sadness and no love? I will close my eyes and pretend I didn’t type that nor even thought it. Then, Jesus will smile and say, “You are forgiven my son, but sin no more.” I can see His gentle smile with the corner of his eyes showing a bit of sadness from my sin against Him. 

So we walk through our day, we try to live in this world without living in this world. We cannot do the earthly pleasures for the most part, they are all a sin. But with Jesus and His love we don’t want such pleasures, or do we? Do others rationalize sin like I just did? “Oh you are a good guy Mitch, He will forgive you, just one more time.”   No, I dare say, this is almost blasphemy and that such sin of the Holy Spirit one cannot return from.

So I rambled a bit into word that will never be seen by anyone by God. I invite Michael the Archangel and all the warrior angels to my side. Protect me and keep me in  proper stance with my soul’s glance.

God bless you all, for He truly is a whisper away.

Bottled in Bond  In Jesus name I say

Hello darkest ones that the Lord is trying to lift into a puddle of happiest waters. Did you know we are mostly water? Did you know that the Holy Spirit showed Himself to me as waters? Yes, one day as He took over my voice and asked “May I pray for you?” This was unbeknownst to me at the time. My right hand came up beside my head, palm open towards the cashier that was having trouble breathing. She answered quickly with an obvious faith “Yes!” And she lowered her head in respect. I was shown waters moving from me, in a rectangular way of movement right into her. She breathed in immediately and her complete countenance changed. She was in that instant, healed from a life long path of asthma.

Yes, darkest ones that the Lord is trying to lift into that puddle of happiest waters. This is a true miracle and one of many miracles He has used me to move and work through. Did you know that God is not intrusive? That the Father waits for us to ‘ask’ so that then He shall answer? Oh yes, mighty darkest ones waiting for the cool puddle of happiest waters of the Holy Spirit.

I am a sinner, as we all are but I feel I am a bad sinner person. Yet, God is using me, attempting to use me to keep me in His word. For if I fail enough and too many times, He has thousands He can turn to and use. YOU also, can be used by the Father of all things. But, ya gotta stop sinning. But Mitch? I enjoy booze and the ladies and the indulgent way of human life. I cannot stop such things, so I guess I will burn.  “Yea, you will,” I say to those that say these words my way. Again, God is not intrusive so we all begin a journey of temptation like never before in our lives when we decide, to hear God asking for us to follow and give our lives to Him.

But Mitch, I cannot give up my greed and the pleasures of the women through my touch all turns to ecstasy! How dare you suggest such to me, that God would want that unhappiness in my life! Go thither away from me! “Ah, you protest too much my friend in love with God and love.”

The silence and calmness that becomes you when you choose God, has no description. Denounce even your coffee for I tell you true we are only shown by contrasts the horrible and the beautiful in life. Contrasts of good and evil. Oh, but Mitch you are boring me with such banter. I must go drink bourbon and become wise unto the lady that winks my way. I must become her pleasure and be the all she seeks. Of course, when morning finds I will leave her in that puddle of fake love and vile fornication. But, Mitch, I am forgiven right?

I dare say, yes but thou tempt the Lord too many  times and away from Him is your soul.  There is no returning if you do such animosity to our God.

Hear me those that will hear me. I was shown the way of heaven with its beauty and love I cannot describe. I was shown peace that literally causes your soul to fly into tears of love. I was shown the evil, I fought until it killed me as I turned my back to its claws that were razors. Hear me, you have a path with God, He knew you before birth. YOU had a conversation with Him about your life here, You knew what you were getting into. This is but a teeny bit of time, a vapor of time. Hear me you that wants the pleasures of the woman or the man. That wants the money through greed to destroy all to get that bit of cash. Hear me if you can hear me. Stop giving in to sin. Sin, is death to forever with love. Sin, is choice of forgotten spies and no place to lay thy head with peace. Sin, is the lost cough upon the spew of filth across your soul and the only place you will be allowed to sleep. Covered in the stench and lifting redundantly into its vile. Your choice when you remain in the way of evil and flesh.

Tell me something, you are complete with God’s light, you are born in His image, your soul. Your spirit has to grow in life. The many times you say no to sin, the many times you helped another without gain or reward. The times you opened a door for someone and said, “have a blessed day.” The sins of your family can stop with you. Did you know you have the power to stop the generational sin lineage? Just takes one of the blood of that sin. 

The demons that have whispered the same temptations to your ancestors, are whispering to you now. And you are giving into their bottled in bond 100 proof temptations. Stand up and reach for our Lord God through Jesus to the Father all things are heard. Then when they whisper, when they physically touch you in an erotic way, when they whisper for you to curse another, when they whisper, one more drink, it’s ok. Step away and say ‘NO!” Then they have to flee.    I am not saying you will always remain steadfast and not sin, but it will get fewer and fewer times you give in. Why, you ask. Because God sees you trying and asking for help. God is not intrusive. So ask, plead, beg, scream to stop! Then walk through your day with His word. Going to the Bible, hearing what you can hear and doing what you can do, with God. 

Hello darkest ones in life here. We who are the greatest of sinners need to be ready to love God. To tell that person over there, “stop! God is here and loves you!”

Hello darkest ones of life here, I am darkest also but I strive for His love, for His peace and for His forgiveness from His Son Jesus. Did you know that every sin you are committing now He died for 2000 years ago for forgiveness of it. 

Did you know God knew you before you were born and knew your choices. Did you know you are loved beyond time for He gave Jesus to suffer our pain.  

Did you know I also love you for you are my brother, my sister, my mother my father. We are all born of Christ Jesus, WE are all born from love.

Did you know……………..  

“Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it” (Matthew 7:13-

One way to see this. Think of sin as gaining weight, with each pound gained we get larger, unable to fit through the narrow gate of heaven. God's word is healthy, keeps us thin enough to fit. When we ask forgiveness it is like a diet pill. Slowly there will be a change, as soon as repentance and denouncing the sin occurs, we are removed the weight, the sin.

Another way:

I recently stumbled, a nice way to put when one sins when trying to walk the path of holy and with God. “Mitch, just repent and renounce.”  Yes this is true God does forgive because of Jesus's sacrifice for us we can be forgiven. 

The narrow gate and road to heaven is truly very simply put and done by our God. When we stay the path with His word, His commandments we are immediately on the narrow road. When we sin, which truly we are walking sinners but when we ‘stumble’ we know to ask forgiveness and renounce it and not do it again. 

The tempters are tenacious and never stopping their whispering temptations into your ear. Have you ever noticed you are going about your normal day, then out of the blue in the literal middle of a conversation or sitting with friends you feel you need a drink. Everyone of us has their weaknesses, mine was a bit of drink which lead to other easy to fall into sins. Something about sinning, it is always easy to do. Something about walking the path God wants, it is always difficult to do. Because we have not gotten close enough into His word to strengthen our ‘spiritual muscle,’ if you will and the tempter is the Prince of this world he makes the pleasures more pleasurable.

Out of the literal blue you want a drink or someone who has been pushing you and pushing you but you have relaxed and forgiven them. You snap, then in anger curse at them! Two sins right there, anger and foul language. 

 “No, Mitch that is just life and being a human.” That thought of it being a human having anger and cursing at someone is natural is also from the enemy. God hates anger and foul language. 

Colossians 3:8 - 3:10

⁸ But now ye also put off all these; anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy communication out of your mouth.

⁹ Lie not one to another, seeing that ye have put off the old man with his deeds;

¹⁰ And have put on the new man, which is renewed in knowledge after the image of him that created him:

We carry on with our day and some time goes by, “oh, i can have just one shot of tequila.” After half a bottle and another sin added to it, we stumbled again. We ask forgiveness and beg to have help not to fail anymore. 

With each stumble it is like driving down our Lord's narrow road to Heaven and we swerve a little. We hit those warning ridges that cause us to pull back onto the road. Those warning ridges are the Holy Spirit convicting us, letting us know we are doing wrong. Now, back on the easy narrow road, it is easy if you stay in His word and obey His commandments, which is very obvious it is not easy for humans. 

The next stumble, which is the 5th in as many months, guess what happens. The warning ridges begin to wear away. They are being run over too often and start to smooth. We stop feeling any conviction of wrong doing, rationalizing it as just life and we are good people God knows our hearts. 

With every continuing sin, a side road is formed, so we have room to keep living a sinful life and feel, “I love God, I love all..” Then sin against God with anger, cursing, gossip, laziness. 

We all have our weaknesses that have been noticed by the enemy. And they are always whispering, waiting to see what we type, see if we are driving to the booze store. See if we are texting something sexual, gossiping, lying.

 Then they add pleasure to it, they pounce and celebrate the soon stumble once more away from God. They laugh at God showing Him how easily His supposed sons and daughters fall away from Him. They get to rest, when we stumble. Two reasons they are tenacious and always whispering and tempting us, 1) they hate God, and we are in the image of God. 2) they get to rest with each fall from us. 

Proverbs 4:16 kjv

“For they sleep not, except they have done mischief; and their sleep is taken away, unless they cause some to fall.”

With each time we give up trying to walk / drive/ the narrow road with God, it becomes a very wide road. That has been expanded by all of our sins that we did not repent nor renounce. Now justified in our minds eye, we speak the way of God “I love God I love all!” then we stab them in the back with gossip, which is murder. 

The easy way to Heaven is the easy narrow Gate and Road God teaches us how to walk or drive down.

The enemy can do nothing unless we listen to their temptations and sin. The enemy has no power except to make all earthly things very pleasurable, then drop you in the dirt yelling in your ear how pitiful and dirty you are. They bring the temptation of yay, then degrade you with disgust and tell you God hates you and you will never be forgiven.

That which is inside you is greater than anything in the world.  God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit have us.

Truly, easy is it to walk the narrow road and walk through the narrow gate when we stay in God's word, obey His commandments and love.  Easy peasy!

May God bless all that read this with clear knowledge and knowing He loves us still until we turn so far away and fill with sin. He cannot even see us. Then we are walking the wide road and will fit through the wide gate to hell. God doesn't hear us when we go past the point of conviction and no return.  He had to even let Jesus feel a complete separation from the Father to the Son, due to sin. God sees all the good and evil, but He will not hear our cries for help. Is on the wrong frequency, is in the vile of evil choice and evil has an energy that cant co exist with God. 

Another way to see this. Think of sin as gaining weight, with each pound gained we get larger. God's word is healthy. When we ask forgiveness it is like a diet pill. Slowly there will be a change, as soon as repentance and denouncing the sin occurs, we are removed the weight, the sin.

INTO THE LEVELS OF SPIRITUAL GROWTH
~The First Hello to God ~ 

THE BEGINNING   

As I have gone through my life, God has shown me the so many different levels of learning, how to hear Him, and how to do and know what is His will for me. How to know, I should say, He seems so quiet and yet He is always 'talking' to us in a way we learn to hear. But we will never hear Him if we do not begin the conversation.

Praying is talking to God. The simple thought of talking to or asking Him for help or giving Him thanks, is actually from our 'spirit' and is  opening a small line of light or a telephone line for communication and learning between you and Him.

When we reach for God it gives Him a chance to reply with teaching us. God is not intrusive and will never force His will on us. We have free will and choice. When we bring God into our daily moments, talk to Him, "Gosh, God I need help today.." He hears and begins the individual journey and path with us.

Everyone born has an individual journey with God and their own path with Him. My path is not yours or his or theirs. If you are a parent you see each child is different and you, as the parent, also teach each child in a different way to the same end, do we not?

An easy and simple way to see not to judge others, well we shouldn't because we are then condemned by the sin we are judging them of committing (Romans 2:1). But also, not to judge, for you have no idea of their path with God or at what level they are with Him spiritually.

When we first go to school we learn the basics, one plus one is two etc. We are on a simple beginner level in school. This is the same as when we begin our journey with God. We begin with learning His word, even though most, if not all, at first make no sense.

Have you ever wondered why so many things in the Bible make no sense to you? Then on any given day it is clear as a bright sunny day. When we learn 'one plus one is two,' we see the numbers and know the answer. If someone would throw down a calculus or any other advanced math problem, we would see numbers but not understand the problem. For we are still on one plus one equals two level.

As we reach, pray, and talk to God, we grow our spirit to become more familiar with His voice.  We learn or hear Him because we went to school ~ reached for Him ~ then learned, one plus one is two. He can begin to lift us to higher levels in spiritual understanding of Him and His word when WE reach to learn. Wanting to be closer to God will cause Him to help you do just that.

It is up to us to open for Him. Reach with all you can. Sharpen that pencil, eat a good breakfast put into your soul a desire to know Him and learn. I will be talking about the so many different levels and ways God does teach us in PART II : ) 

FIRE INSIDE - Words that came to Mitch while resting...  
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I was soaking in a hot tub, resting after cycling several miles. I fell asleep but was awakened with these words being spoken. I was saying them, "Nobody told them they  have a fire inside.." .. I got up and wrote them down. and more came to life. We have a fire inside, it is our soul and our love for God! This talks of the journey of life when we are lost in drugs, temptations and life has us by our souls. Then a  realization we wasted life, then finding God, and the ‘fire inside.’The last words of this I feel, felt like was from a place in life when time says God is real. WE all have a fire inside! Never too late!  

Nobody told them they had a fire inside.. 

and the wish did slip around in their mind, 

lips of ice told of lies of days gone by.. 

 

I watch the blue drip down my wall as I sit.. in my bathroom stall 

I sprinkle powder and then I know it all.. 

Burning eyes see the cold of heat 

hands feeble try to feel complete.. whispered.. but the power is gone 

 

I watch my feet follow the morning dawn but the shadows only know the torn 

of the ease of tears 

and the watch.. of those who mourn.. 

 

I grab my head as I feel it burst with pain from the very first of the thought.. 

of power now thrown with thirst 

pulling my feet back inside my head 

I float..into oblivion 

...dead.. 

where the mast meets the sail of eternity 

 

the waste of time now the gone of mine 

is this life..I throw against that wall of sublime and the wish.. that moves around in

my mind ......... 

 

somebody tell them they have a fire inside!

not to waste a moment of this place we reside called life.. and live and never hide.. 

lips of ice can be warmed again 

fire released can be used my friend 

..open those feeble hands again and survive!