We walk the best we can in God's glory. We read the bible, we pray for people, we give our lives to God, to Jesus to the Holy Spirit, then we sin. Is a moment of an old path, familiar and vile but we rationalize it is ok, we know God loves us and it cant be that bad. But, every sin is bad. The small one of lying to the horrible one of murder. Oh, not the murder of flesh, but the assassination of their integrity and their reputation.
God abhors bearing false witness against another, it is considered murder. But Mitch, c'mon he is just a bad guy and gossips also. A sin, any sin is massive in the eyes of our Lord. Jesus had to suffer more than we can ever understand, so we can be forgiven, again and again for sinning.
I do not care how close or far away from God you are, a sin hits the soul with a vile black drop. Each sin that occurs and we do not ask forgiveness we do not repent/ change mind/ and denounce/ don'd do it anymore, it begins a huge eclipse of God's vision upon us. God sees all the evil and the good, Proverbs 15;3. but He will not ‘hear’ us. John 9:31. Now we know that God heareth not sinners: but if any man be a worshipper of God, and doeth his will, him he heareth.
So when we sin again, get to a quiet place and talk with God. Let Him see you want to stop, we want to be what He needs, we want His love and light to shine on all we are around.
Is easy to fail, and is easy to ask forgiveness. When we stop asking and trying not to sin, is when our souls are doomed to a forever suffering in hell. Matthew 25;41 Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels
God bless you